today, hurray!, i ran again. now it's pathetic that a man who could run 30 miles is happy he ran 17 minutes on three continuous days. but there you are.

so i'm tired, and i've got the kids working silently on their vocab lesson. so i can "grade" exams. yeah right.

i also got my poems back from c. with her notes. i think she was puzzled or shocked or both that i sometimes write from a female voice. at least that's what the notes seem to say. (shrug) i also believed and learned in college that good writing is never about you. well, she did like some of them.

and that leads me to a thought i had on the way to work this morning. I wonder if i should reform the Popcorn Poets. it was a group of writers (really just an excuse to read our stuff) that got together every week and eat popcorn and read our work. mostly poems. though one girl's boy started coming with songs. the popcorn also could be used as a "missle" to underscore your feelings on a piece. it was lots of fun, if short lived. hmmm....

i do wonder if c. would want to do it. she's got lots going on in her life. i need to think of other writers that might be able to join in on the fun.

so l.bug emailed today. she liked the site, though pics are bad for work. yeah, i agree. missed hearing from her. strange how someone i've never met face to face, though we did talk once on the phone, has become a bigger part of my life. she knows how hard these past months have been. on a side note, panther was jealous of our "talking." i think she thought i was going to run off to calif. and have some torid affair. sigh. maybe i am better off...

i ripped a bunch of yearbook pics from m.f., our yearbook supervisor. there's this other teacher who takes pics around school. i need to get his disc cause he had some great pics of the teachers and kids. he just walked into the rooms. they showed them on the tv this morning and i was riveted. almost forgot to take role. well, i'm going to post a few of them. give people a look at what some of my kids look like, or at least what some of the kids in the building are like because i didn't see many of my specific kids.

i told m.f. it is distracting building a site. i only told her about the teacher site. i think these older teachers would not take kindly to the naughtier one. : ) though i am debating sending the address to c. but it seems too desperate: "look look see what i did" or "i'm not a good boy." i need to think it over more. though she mayb end up asking for the pics to be emailed any day now. they're all on the site now.

i got the essays the kids wrote about me. greg was nice enough to copy them for me and drop them of during class. i will see what they're like and maybe scan them for the site. still can't believe it...

m.f. says i'm doing better...she said i was smiling and energized when i was asking for the yearbook pics. i guess i am. getting better i mean. i don't think i thought of panther more than a few times this morning.

i did get a HUGE pep talk from blonde last night. i called for it. needed it. i was on the verge of calling...or verge of thinking of calling... so blonde told me panther was boring. she'd been around the world and still she can't seem to engage people. sigh. maybe that's right. and yeah it helped. but it makes me sad too. i saw things in her....hell....it's why i wanted to marry her. blonde also hates how panther broke it off: out of the blue without looking back. yeah i don't like either.

ok, back to work.