easy bake oven of despair
2005-04-06
clearly there is something wrong here...i am not sleeping well. my mind is unable to task anything more complex than a remote. i feel myself drifting away from things that made me happy.
the only things that come with a certainty are my feeling of loss (it has been 5 months and 6 days) and ugliness (her criticism claws deep).
and horniness, which, to my masculine shame, seems deepen my sense of disconnection, loss, and ugliness...
i mix that with a classic and boring sense of betrayal: how easy it was for her to forget about the years together and move on, while i feel it's full weight.
....and bake it in the oven of loneliness for several weeks...
sigh
sometimes i hate being an english teahcer
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