called to confirm
2005-02-20
c. just called to confirm i was coming to her party tonigt. i said you were serious. she seemed taken aback. i told her that a 2 1/2 minute conversation did seem serious. she went on to explain about the plumber. blah blah i tuned it out; my purpose in bringing up the "disrespectful" manner of invitation done. i know it's harsh but some people just don't have good manners. panther for one. i think she hated it when i politely pointed them out. i just couldn't see raising kids with someone who didn't understand these things. oh i digress... so of course polite man that i am, i sai yes i would be there at six pm. i asked for her address. i did also ask from where she was calling cause my phone didn't recognize it. doh, she's calling from her boyfriend's phone. i really am not getting anything there. sighspeaking of which...it comes to me during the day that one reason panther couldn't be with me is sex. i liked lots of it. she could take or leave it. i've done some kinky things and i wanted to do them with her. i definitely wanted to have us do c. sometime. that really got my going. now our relationship was about trust and honesty. asshole that i am i trusted her when she said that she liked the idea and big asshole i was honest with her about everything.
goes to show you honest is not the best policy. i always believed that. and now, having tried it, i have proof.
ok, i need some coffee. steady my nerves for tonight. and don't worry i'm not going to drink much at all. and i plan on ducking out when i get overwhelmed.
later.
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