which reminds me to complain. blonde gets on the phone next and starts talking about this great internet film she went me. it was on the sudanese refugee problem. i didn't meet the director who was a college-friend of blonde. but panther had met him. and so blonde went on about that. even as god was in the background yelling at her to stop it. then there is the endless apologizing.

i am sooo damaged.

i could hear it in my voice when i told blonde not to worry about it. and i was worried about it. i had successfully put her out of my mind for the day so far. now, she's in it. while i can bet i'm not in her mind. if that's not screwed up, i don't now what is.

sigh

so i'm having a wonderfalls marathon. i'm so angry that they ended this show so early. i think there was only four episodes aired. so when they collected all the remaining episodes on dvd, i went straight for it. and as i am not watching football today, it makes for a great distraction.

yes, you heard right. i maybe the only person in the area not obssessed with the game. both my brothers are glued to the tv. my youngest bother will be in an eagles bar in LA. my other brother will be watching with his girls, who could identify eagles jersey before they could walk. it makes me really really weird one in the family. and if they keep adding eagles fanatics to it, i will out numbered by a football team soon. panther enjoyed that i wasn't a sports fan. i always prided myself on NOT being one of those stooges that ran with the crowd. or was part of some fan base. oh well.

i feel like taking the day off tomorrow. so i need to get a lesson plan together and drop it off with the sub in the morning. i hate waiting to the last minute to get something together. i usually try and make it easy on the sub, so i get a video with a worksheet. makes it easy on everyone. i hope that with one more day i will feel fine. or good enough to go to work.

my running brother, call him marathon man, he was giving shit again about me not running. i am going to run again. it's just that i have such low motivation now. but i will get back to where i'm supposed to be. this summer i was doing 20-milers and now i can barely get out of bed. i know that this allowing things to get out of control. it can't be allowed to go on this way.

speaking of getting off my ass, it's tax time and i need my refund. : ) i need to start crunching some numbers.