i guess i should have this chiseled on my tombstone. sigh.

ok, so i tell myself i'm going to stay away from c. nothing good is coming from this. she's NOT interested. she sent you her poems, a week late. just leave it go, my mind tells me. but what do i do?

i found this website with these awesome cat pics on it. normally, i would send it to panther. her cat is one of her favorite joys. but i can't so i send it to c. c. has a two cats. so it makes her smile and she emails back to that effect. then i do the stupid: i ask if she's got plans on thursday afternoon. she replies, "yup." ugh. no followup, no explanation, no what were you planning?, etc. a just "i'm-going-to-be-doing-something" that doesn't include you.

i feel pretty crappy, right now.